My need for perfectionism has eaten away at me for years. It’s a murderous thief who steals joy & kills hope before it can take root. But I find hope in the little trinkets that whisper to me in the corners of the antique store. Their longing to be loved again carries me across the room until I hold them in my hands.
So, I don’t want matching chairs for my dining table. I want a beloved makeup bench that belonged to someone’s mee-maw that I grabbed at an estate sale.
I don’t need a matching plate set. I need beautiful individual plates sourced from my favorite craft faire.
My ring dishes are tiny sauce bowls I’ve placed all over the house. They live in the corners of my home where I feel safe to finally relax and unwind.
My favorite side table is a brass tea table with layers of patina that always come back after I clean it away. A history that begs to be seen.
My most complimented accessory is a beetle broach I grabbed at a vintage expo for $10. Those who admire it are always instant friends & comrades.
I write my dreams down on paper fused with pressed flowers whose petals turned towards the sun many moons ago. I fold them and tuck them into a seashell turned locket perfumed with jasmine. The goddess of beauty, magick and war oversee them with a sense of dutiful grace.
A glass bird holds open the door to my most private room. Her song muted, but not unheard. Her joy pervades as the sun hits her wings and throws prisms of color against the wall.
Perfectionism may try to scrub me clean, to have only the bright and polished come through, but my joy is like a patina that slowly comes back after you scrub it away. It’s the ritualized make up routine of a grandmother sitting at her vanity in the morning light. It make take some time, but it will come back.
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